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If I do not believe in me then there is no me. Dear Diary, 25/03/13 I have to make a really important and risky decision on whether I should obtain the role of Jerome and no longer be existent in order to achieve my dreams and goals and prove to everyone that I am capable of doing the same as the “natural born” babies and go to space. I think it might be a struggle for me, not knowing whether people would find out who I really am, if I do go with this. I keep having second thoughts about whether or not I should go through with this and change who I am completely. Its going to be difficult work, having to scrub off my dna as hard as possible off my body, carrying his blood and urine in bags taped on me, changing my hair style, having to become taller through a very painful exercise, changing my hair so it looks like his, wearing contacts so that nobody knows I wear glasses and it seems like I have 20/20 vision. What if someone were to recognize me, and they realize I’ve been a fake all along, that I’m really an invalid in a valid persons position. What would they think' What would they do' Would I ever be able to live through the regret, my thoughts, and the fact that everyone was right' I am not sure if I should do it or not. I know I can but the possibility of being recognized, or something going wrong is much greater then the possibility of this all going smoothly and as planned. I hate the fact that people are creating their babies in test tubes calling it the “natural” way. I understand why they do it though, its so there is no discrimination against their children, like there is with me. Invalids are given a life of low self worth and solitude because they have no apparent future. I want to show everybody that an invalid like me can outsmart the valids around themselves and reach a life of bliss and success. That our ambition is something we truly aim to achieve and will stop at nothing to do so. This may not work out how I have planned it though. I have to go in as a valid, everything I do will be in the name of Jerome Morrow. Nobody will ever know my true name and therefore I cannot prove much to anyone other then my family and my fellow colleagues. I want to make a change in society but maybe by getting rid of me and pretending to be someone else then I truly am non-existent and nobody will ever know or understand how difficult it would be being an invalid changing their life to fit into a valid world. I took Jerome up on his offer just to prove to the world that I am as good as everyone else. I use Jerome’s blood and skin samples to hide my identity and be accepted in Gattaca. Nobody has realized it’s me though, they all think I’m Jerome Morrow when in fact I’m really Vincent. There is a daily procedure I have to follow everyday before I go to work if I do not want my true identity to be shown. I put a drop of blood and skin dna on my index finger, because when you enter the space program they take a snippet of your blood to show your identity proving you are a valid not an invalid. I have been a valid for weeks now and is working better then I ever thought it would. It is surprisingly a lot easier to get away with it then I thought. When they take urine tests you are allowed to turn away which makes it all the more easier for me to give them a bit of Jerome’s urine from the pouch. When the police came to take a blood test from everyone, I made sure to carry a tube of Jerome’s blood with me. When they put the needle in my arm, I made a big scene out of it all and dropped the tube of Jerome’s blood on the table. I am so close to going up in space. I have been waiting for this my whole life. Although I am going to miss Jerome he left me a lifetime supply of urine and blood to keep me going. I am also going to miss Irene. It is so exciting and even though nobody will know me as Vincent Anton Freeman going into space but as Jerome Morrow it is okay with me because I have achieved my life goal and that’s all that really matters to me. There’s only a couple days left till take off so that’s it for now when I come back I’ll be sure to write all about my journey.