Ruined

In late 2006 early 2007 I was charting one night on ward C2 and came across the entry of one of the day RN’s that stated something to the effect that a patient was an “asshole”. I reported this to my RN and she then reported it to the RN3. A few days later I arrived to work to find that an email had been sent from this RN to the ward program manager stating what a horrible nurse I was and how it was difficult to work with me. The ward program manager had responded to this RN’s email with a lot of negative things about me. The problem was that this ward program manager had never spoken with me or met me. She had stated in her email that she (the ward program manager) had found me difficult to deal with and rude and several other negative things. The ward program manager when she responded to the email from the day RN forwarded the email with her response to the entire night shift staff. By the time I had come back to work, either the next night or after my days off other staff in other wards had heard about this email. I was then injured at work, and the patient that injured me claimed that I was rough with her when I took her vitals after she was placed into restraints. I was contacted at home by the RN3 about this matter and I reminded him that I was not at the facility when the patient was in restraints. She was still being placed into restraints when I was sent to the ER. I assumed that this was the end of this issue. I then got my evaluation for 2007 and there was a statement at the end of my evaluation from this ward program manager with a bunch of things that were not true. I pointed this out to my RN3, who said that I could write my statement at the bottom refuting the information but that he would not take it out of my evaluation. So I wrote my statement. I came back to work in 2009 and have applied and interviewed for several positions. The two positions that I interview for one did not contact me at all about the position, the second position just said that they have taken someone else in the position. I also had placed a bid in and received a call from a ward that had gotten my bid. This RN informed me that my bid could not be accepted because of negative things in my personnel file. I then went to HR and looked through my personnel file. I found an email from the ward program manager to the RN3 admitting that she had sent the negative email to all of night staff, (which I had been blamed for in my evaluation). She further stated that I had involved pt in staff issues. She stated “feedback” from days and swings without any examples of what I had done wrong, using words like “self righteous” and “resistance to being a team player”. She then alludes to “being rough taking vitals” which I can only think she means the allegations by the patient that assaulted me, (that were proven to be false), stating that it was backed up by staff, but doesn’t say what staff. She also states that I take the initiative to do tasks that are not my job, (since when is this a bad thing'). When I came back to work in 2009 I met this ward program manager on the ward that I am currently on. She walked into the ETC room and introduced herself. When I gave her my name her exact words were “I think I recognize the name but I don’t remember you, we have never met have we'” This just confirms what I knew from 2007 that this person had never met me, but was making allegations about my work and behaviors. I am mortified that this email was placed in my file and was highlighted in bright yellow. I know for a fact that it has cost me at least one position. Even if it is removed now there are at least 4 RN3’s and who knows how many other staff that have seen this email and will not be able to forget what they have read. Even if they are told that it was false information. I feel like I have been permanently black listed. This is something that will keep me for getting any other positions here at WSH or anywhere else that can see my file. Not only has this influenced my furthering of my career, but I believe that it has influenced how my current RN3 interacts with me as it seems she has been very hard on me since I have gotten back from L&I. Even going as far as to telling my current ward staff that she “didn’t like me when she first met me” Since the first time she met me was when I came back from L&I she would have had no reason not to like me except for what she had read in my file.